What I'm Called to Do!

So for the people that don't know I'm going on a mission trip to Mali Africa in December for 17 days! I'll be going with a organization out of Ozark called School to the Nations. We will be ministering to unreached people groups in the Sub-Sahara region of this country. The purpose of this trip will be to continue building relationships that have been established in previous trips, show the “ Jesus Film” to the people in their native language, provide a sports ministry for the children, install Bio-Stand filters to provide clean water, and do various other service projects.

 Last year I knew that I wanted to grow deeper with the Lord! I was going to church, doing quite and small group. I just didn't know what else to do! During this time the youth that I was working with was doing a bible study before youth on Wednesday nights that dealt with are you willing to GO! Well they showed a video and I saw that video the next week again and one more time that next week at a bible study for a campus christian club. That same night I saw a video about going to Africa! At that moment all I could think was no way am I going on this. But over the time of the ext few weeks God worked at my heart and I signed up for information for the trip. One I found out how much the trip was a really didn't think I could go! As I prayed God made it much more relevant that I had to go on this trip! So I commented to the trip in June!

If you would like to see more about the trip you can you to schooltothenations.com and read more!
Also if you would like to become a prayer partner you email me at mallory.mullally@gmail.com
Finally if you would like to be a finical partner you can go to Africa Profile .

Created to be Y-O-U!

Ever wounder why you were made the way you were made? Well every school year this question runs through my head. Why was I made this way?!?!?!? Many people don't know and probably wouldn't be able to tell by looking at me but I have a learning disability. I've had it since 3rd grade and it has grown over the years. Going to college for someone with a disability isn't easy at all. As the year gets started every year I wonder how I'm going to make it through the year. My learning disability has to do with ready comprehension, which makes it really hard to understand what I read and actually remember it from one page to the next. Many teachers don't understand how that is and just think a student is lazy.
                                 " For you created my inmost being;
                              you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
                   I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
                                              your works are wonderful,
                                                  I know that full well."
                                                       Psalm 139:13-14

Yes, I don't understand why I was made this way, but God has a reason for it and made me the way he wanted to.  

Excited for whats to come

Last night was my first Africa training for most of the team it was their second! I'm so excited to go on this trip! God is doing so much in my life it's amazing!
At the meeting we found out that we will get to go to villages that have NEVER ever heard the gospel of  God  before! That is just amazing to me. People spend every day sharing the word in the U.S. yet there are places in the world that people don't even have the access to hearing the word of God or knowing what it is!  Not to say that evangelizing in the U.S. is bad. I just feel that to many Christians stay in their safe place and call it good. God calls us to go make disciples of all nation not just at home.
                            "Therefore go make disciples of all nations" Matthew 28:19 
This is for sure what I'm probably most excited about at this point mainly because this is going to be so far out of my comfort zone. Which is totally what I need. god does some amazing thing when you are out of your comfort zone!
Do I have some fears Yes! Many things are going through my head at this point.

1. How in the world am I going to be able to prepare my self for this trip when I have the class load that I do?
2. Why is everything Will and the air force happening now?
3. Is Will going to be here when I get back to tell all about the trip?
4. Will my Dad ever Understand why I need to go on this trip?
5. Is my mom going to show support for this trip?
6. How do you share the gospel with someone that has never ever heard about it before?

Yes that is just a bit of what has been crossing my mind.

It would mean more than anything to fully have my parents support and them to see why God has lade this on my heart to go. But if anyone knows anything my family really isn't a church going family. Once one thing goes wrong in a church they are in then they see it as they need to stop going. In other words they are putting their faith more in the hands of human beings, which aren't perfect  than putting their faith in the creator.

Getting Real Now!

Well it's been a few days since I've posted! With the way this year is panning out, doesn't look like post are going to come as I was hoping. Going to school only two days is not staring to seem like such a great idea! I have had so much work and that s only week one! The picture is what my living room looked like when I was studying last night!YIKES!!!
I did find time to have some fun in there though. The college group at church had a rootbeer kegger, which since i have a life this year I'm hoping to get more involved in. Also  Icthus had water wars last night as well! Which was a blast!

Now for some seriousness.  At church tonight we talked about doubt and what you have doubt spiritually.John 20:24-26 Well listening I really started to dig down deep and the whole doubt thing started to hit home. Yes everyone doubts something in life. Getting real with my self, the real reason why it's been so hard for me to accept the point that Will, will be going to the air force is that I have doubt in God that everything is going to be ok and that he'll be there by my side. I know that I've grown up knowing these things but that doubt is there.

Like God are you really going to give me peace when he lives?
God are you going to keep him safe along the way?
God are you going to put people there for me?
God what am I to do with my life?

 These are just a few of the questions that go through me head almost daily.
 This is probably a verses that I should lean more on 1Peter 5:7,Proverbs 3:5-7,Jeremiah 29:11 

Ever felt this way?
What are your doubts?

 

Over Whelmed Much!

Can I just say OVER WHELMED!

the work from just two classes. This is what it looked like when I was just getting started!

Yes that is what I feel like this year is going to be! Today I had my first class at a new college! I am excited! but it's going to be a lot of work and I'm thinking late nights! I'm so blessed to have to job that I had this summer. It taught me so much! Going into class today i actually knew half the things that the teacher was talking about all because of this summer!
I will say this year is going to be a lot of getting use to. I was hoping to get a second job beside babysitting, but not so sure I can juggle all of that now! Just going to schools two days means the teachers will pail on the work. Oh Joy!  And with Will leaving for the Air Force some time in there, this year is really going to get crazy. It's going to be different having to learn military time and just adjusting not getting to talk to him all the time and not getting to see him when I want to. It's going to take a lot of getting use to! Not sure anyone really want to know how I feel about it, but for once I'm just going to put it out there. It STINKS! Ya since two weeks ago when I found out it has sunk in but I'm just ready for it all to start and get under way. 526 days of training and not getting to see or really hear from him seems like a century!
i know through all this God will help me through it and has already put people in my life that will help me and be there for me. I know that some days will be better than others, but I'll make it through it! Just know that this is going to were I'll probably just let it all out!

What a weekend!

Wow! What a weekend, any of you ever thought that on a Sunday night? It seems as if it's been a week or maybe two. I've been exhausted!
Since Friday morning, I've baby sited twice and helped with a retreat weekend for the students.

the 7th grade girls after getting their hair done

After I got done sitting on Friday, I came home for a few hours to clean and get a few things put together. Then I headed to the church for 7th grade welcome weekend! Which is an event for 19- 20 hours that the seniors do for the new incoming 7th graders in the student ministry. Friday night after the session at the church Jessie and I went out to the girls house to spend some time and get to know the new 7th grade girls! The senior girls throw a fashion shoot for the girls! It was a blast! But we got done quite late! Should have know. So with about 5 hours of sleep, we finished out the day on Saturday around 1pm. After that I went to baby sit again! By the time I hit the bed last night I was so ready for sleep! It couldn't have came fast enought! 
Now that I have had a full days of rest it's time to start school again tomorrow. Oh how I haven't missed it. But i am for sure ready to get this year under way! Along with everything  that is going to come with.

Great end of the summer

The last two days have been great! It was so much fun to have Will come and surprise me! We just had an relaxing last two days together. We went out to dinner last night a Fedora Social House for dinner. I had a groupon from this summer so we figured we would go try the place out! It was fun to go out to dinner we don't do that, that much at all. It just hasn't really been our thing. It was Will's first time having fondue! He loved the cheese one and chocolate one. But was amazed by the meat fondue, only because you had to cook your own meet! lol. As you can tell he looks pretty happy in the picture.

This was a great way to end the summer and start the school year. Which he didn't notice but I did. He surprised me last year in September! So pretty much the start of school then too!

SURPRISE!

After my Lovely Surprise last night I can fully back up my post yesterday. As my usual Wednesday night, I went to church to see the students before the school year gets started. All after evening I kept getting text from Will saying I miss you and can't wait to talk to you tonight. Which lately none of that is out of the normal. So I had told him I would call after church just like last school year which is normal 8- 8:30 but last night the students had an event after so it was more like 9:15ish. May I back up to say that it was our 11 months yesterday and we never get to spend any of those together. Hopefully we will for our one year! So I'm talking to him on the way home and when I'm almost home he all of a sudden has to get off the phone to go do something.  Need to say, When I walked in my door the fan was off, but i figured I had turned it off. Then I turn to look on the counter and there is a card and a Starbucks coffee (a caramel frap with extra caramel and chocolate drizzle) So at this point I get a text saying surprise! I was so lost I didn't see him any where his truck wasn't out front... WHAT COULD BE GOING ON! No way did he drive an hour and a half to just drop off a card and coffee. Sure enough he was hiding! lol. It was great! Best thing yet!
Like I said yesterday live by the minute. This wasn't planned, he just decided to do this last minute.

But I can say I have know what Love really feels like! Never have in a relationship like this before. I have for sure never had someone ever go out of their way so much for me and care so much!

A Morning of friendly Reminders!

As I was surfing the web this morning, which is what I do about every morning. I normally get around and check facebook to try to keep up in everyone's life's.  I came across a friends Blog as I started to read it was about Psalm 139. Which talks about how you can't run from God! How he knows everything about you before you do it. More and more as this journey gets started it just amazes me how  God is showing me that yes I'm here and yes I know what is going on in your life and how you like to know everything that is going on. As I've grown up in church pretty much my whole life, I already know that God knows me because he created me, but it's such a great reminder when you run across him giving you friendly reminders.

Then I sate down to continue the book that I've been trying to finish since the spring ( yes it takes me a while to finish books) Choosing to See by Mary Beth Chapman. This book is the book about the Steven Curtis Chapman's family and how they handled the loss of their daughter Marir. The first part of the book starts out talking about how Mary Beth and Steven met. In this section  Mary Beth talks about what she had planned for her life and how she is a planner and whats to know every second of her life. This was great! I just laughed and said thanks God! :) I noticed I was for sure not the only one. Then Mary Beth goes on to explain that she married the most crazy out going live by the minute  nothing is every planned husband. Well again I laughed! Not that I'm married but if anyone knows who I am dating he is the most live by the minute guy I've met yet! Don't bother asking so what should we do this afternoon when it's only 9 am! Because you will get an answer some what like "I don't we'll figure it out when the time comes."

Not that I expect these reminders everyday, but when God gives them to us it's great to see. And just knowing that this is a new year and that I'm wanting to grow deeper with him! This these little things have been great to to help me know that God is always right that and knows whats going to happen next and that it is ok for me to let go and not know every minute of every day!

It's just the begaining

 With the new school year starting in just a few day and so many things that God is starting to do in my life already. I figured I would share as the year gets under way.

Starting off this year God as lead me to want to go and share the Gospel in Mali Africa. At the end of the year last year I was desiring to go deeper with God and something that would change my world. This opportunity came upon me and I started to pray if I should go. Over the summer I started to take the steps to going on the trip and still am now.

As for now my world is starting to change even more. My best friend and probably the closest person to me is getting ready to enlist in the air force. It for sure hasn't been an easy road this far as this is just getting starting.  But as I was struggling with seeing this happen I stumbled across this verse.

               Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. - 1 Peter 5:7

This is such a hard thing to do for me because I love knowing whats next and when everything is going to happen. I'm always so organized and have to have everything planned out. More and more as time keeps going God is showing me that I have to turn to him and need him. That he's not going to put me in to deep or any more than what I can handle.